Wait. What?

I have been teaching Spanish part-time since January at a charter school. It had been going ok, a few of the kids were very disruptive, bu then again they are high school students. The way I "thrown into" this job was a little odd. I got the job mid school year. My boss at my other job had been teaching that job but decided to give it up because she had a lot of other things going on. So I taught my class on Tuesday and had to talk to one of the main people at the school after my class. 10 seconds later I was out of a job. They had to lay me off because of budget problems. They had to lay off 15 part time workers due to this problem. Sucks. Plus, who lays off a Spanish teacher on Cesar Chavez Day?

Where the Wild Things Are

This movie looks amazing. Spike Jonze is awesome.

187

I went to Panera after work in the morning because I wanted some of their bomb soup. I got the cup of soup with the 1/2 sandwich and of course it had to be the tuna sandwich. Their tuna recipe by the way is also pretty damn delicious. I had a good lunch. Only thing that made met think was the order number they gave me to put at my table for when they deliver you the food. I got "187"
What is up with that?

ain't afraid of magistrates. grace set the table straight.

Real Hip-hOp.


Mos Def - Words - The Ecstatic - in stores Spring 2009

cartoon.

Ketchup

So I guess I should do a little cliff notes version of my life since my last thorough blog on here, which is from January 2008.

- I stopped liking the girl that I had a crush on.
- Started an internship with the International Rescue Committee, which I would go on to enjoy a lot.

- The old crush would end up getting an internship at the same place.
- Oh and she decided to keep taking classes with me and enrolled in another one with me.
- Ironically I met another girl in that class, a beautiful one at that. The irony is that they knew each other from high school.
- I got hit by a car while riding my bike. Not much damage; just bruises, scrapes, and an ambulance ride to the ER.
- Had a first kiss with the beautiful girl.
- Graduated from college.





- Things started falling apart with the beautiful girl.
- Things fell apart with that girl, who would become a bitch.
- Started working as a private investigator.
- Quit that job because it sucked balls.
- I also quit the job that I had been working at for 2 years because of the bullshit raise they gave me.
- Started another job that is still super fun to work at.
- The bitch would become beautiful again and came back into my life.
- I picked up a 2nd part time job.
- She went back to bitch status.
- Went over 2,000 views on my other (MySpace) blog.
- Won a photography contest on www.GrnAppleTree.com My photograph will be used on a grnappletree t-shirt coming up.



- Have been considering going to art school due to the fact that art is one of the very few things I actually love and have wanted to do since I was a child.



- Found out my "little brother" and his girlfriend are expecting a child.
- Have since then started calling my little brother "Paulie Bleeker"

Earth Hour 2009

So I came across this video today and I remember this event when it first happened a couple of years back. I think it helps bring much needed attention to the global warming problem that affects all of us in one way or another. I myself will tell my friends and see how many of us here in San Diego, Ca. can join in with this movement and turn off our lights for one hour. So go ahead and join in, March 28 at 8:30 pm

Don't Call It A Comeback.

So here I am. Back on blogspot. As you can see it has been over a year since I last posted a blog on here. Why you may ask? Well because I am a lazy fuck who is, well, just plain lazy. I have a MySpace where I fairly regularly post blogs. Those are only, I guess, for friends. That will start to change. I am not going to post all of the same blogs on both pages, they will be semi different but I will paste them on here to if I decide it merits it.

Well there are a few things that I am trying to process in my head before I sit down and write about. These will come soon.

A small glimpse as to what this might be;
1. Becoming a tio for the second time (who, what, where, etc.)
2. Going to art school, up north (LA/SF) or out east (GA/BOSTON/NY)
3. Writing out my thoughts more
4. Writing a book

Two thousand and hate? lol

Well so far this year and it's 6 days have been cool. I rang in the New Year with one of my best friends, Bren, and a few other friends. I had a really good time goin to a bar and then to a party and just when I thought the night was over, it continued. My friend Luis and I then went to Barona and I actually won $30 on slots.
Since then I have just been chillin, working, and kind of just waiting for the new semester to start because it will be a hectic one. I am taking 18 units and I know I need to step it up to make it work out.
I have decided that I would like to be a nicer person, not that I'm a mean guy or anything, but I think you can always be a better person. I would like to be more positive and just be nicer to everyone around me. I tend to be a quiet person sometimes and I know that when I'm quiet I don't look like the most approachable guy. I've been doing good too, at work especially I have been trying to be more sociable with the customers and trying to make them feel appreciated. I know that in the past I would be quiet and keep to myself mostly because I did not want to be at work. I have always been a strong believer in thinking about what you say or how you act before you do it because a lot of the time your actions have an effect on those around you. I always like to put myself in the other persons shoes because to me it's the right thing to do. Too many people only act on what will benefit them or they just only care about themselves. I observe and people watch on a fairly regular basis and many times I have seen someone say the first thing that came to their head or did something that made others feel uncomfortable or offended. With there being so many people out there and especially living in San Diego, you are always around a good amount of people so therefore why not be more respectful of those around us. Nowadays we live in a society where it's all about "me" and trying to do whatever is in your power to get in front of everyone else or get to the "top", well I say why not bring others with you? Why not keep those around us in mind when we do something on a regular day. I am not saying you have to start giving money or doing big things that will dramatically affect the lives of others because most of us do not have the resources to make that possible. What I am saying is just be more courteous, friendly to those around us. Say hi or ask someone how they are doing. If you see someone who dropped something pick it up for them, give someone a smile, give a buck or two to charity, or just watch what you say so that you don't offend someone around you. The week before Christmas I went to the 99 cent store and bought $10 worth of canned food and then went to Vons and bought another $10 worth of canned food and donated it to a canned food drive. You might be saying to yourself, I don't have $20 to be giving away. I didn't either really. I'm broke as a joke, but sometimes you can sacrifice a measly $20 to be able to feed a family. I probably would have spent that on a cd or fast food so I just though why not give it to a better cause, plus I really didn't think that High School Musical cd would be that good anyway, jk lol.
You might thinking wow Los you are really making strides in becoming a saint, lol. I know I have been nicer but there are times when you end up backtracking. At work a couple of nights ago I got into a huge argument with this guy I work with because he's pretty much a dirt bag, lol. No, it's because I work with him a good amount and 60% of what he has to say is negative. I could be having a good day and then I would have to listen to him talk trash about another co-worker or how he doesn't make enough money and then I would get in a bad mood. I would never say anything, I would just let him say what he had to say and just try to zone out while he was talking. That can take you only so far. I made a joke to him about staring at some girl and he ended up getting offended. All I did was walk up to him and another guy and sarcastically said "You are so not obvious right now", the other guy that I work with didn't get offended but Eric got heated and went off on a tangent about he wasn't staring at her and if he was he wouldn't care if it was obvious because he has no shame, that he would stand there and stare at her and if she knew it, he wouldn't care. First off, a little creepy. I just walked away and was amazed at how worked up he got. He is one of those guys that likes to stand on his soap box and say whatever he has to say about anything or anyone but as soon as you try to reply or say anything he starts to ignore you or just start talking over you. He could probably be an evil dictator to a small country. One thing led to another and we ended up getting into an argument later on because he did something on purpose and then tried to talk down to me and I would not stand for it. I ended up bringing into the conversation how negative he was all the time and he got pissed about that and tried to act like he didn't know what I was talking about, but I had specific examples of times that he talked ish about other people and how I was getting tired of hearing it all the time. One of the managers heard us arguing and stopped it before it could go any further. Here's the thing, I know for a fact that I will have to work with him a few times this week and I really don't want to. The thing is he's already had problems with 2 other guys in the department so it's not new for him to be getting into trouble. I'm not one to back down and if they ask me if they should get rid of him I will probably say yes. The thing is, I will most likely only work there for a couple of more weeks because school starts on the 22nd and I am planning on not working this semester and just focusing on school. So even though I wouldn't mind seeing this angry 32 year old douche bag get canned, I would like to be the bigger person and just let it go and try to get along with him. I say this for two reasons; one, if he gets canned and I quit in 2 weeks my work will be short 2 guys and we are already a little short staffed so I would not want to put that burden on my boss and co-workers, and two, I wouldn't want him coming back and cappin' my ass lol sike, two, I want to keep my new outlook on life and be able to give him another shot and see if he get along with the rest of us.
So there it is, I have been trying to stay positive but sometimes there are people that try to hold a brotha down. The "test" started Saturday and we will see how it ends this week because I know my produce manager will talk to me. It probably wouldn't have been a big deal but the grocery manager that stopped the argument between Eric and I said that he would talk to our manager because he knows that Eric has had problems before and that it needs to be brought to attention. I will try my best to stay positive and try to come to a resolution that benefits all.
So later today after I drive to work listening to Tupac's "I ain't mad at 'cha" I will have a chance to try and make things work out. So remember people, keep your head up and if someone tries to bring you down just think about the situation and try to come out with a positive outcome.

Junoesque

I just watched the movie "Juno". Very good movie. I really liked it and I would like to think that there is that sort of love existent in the real world and not just on the silver screen. What Juno's dad was telling her about being with someone who loves you for you no matter if you are looking good or bad and when you are nice or being intolerable and during the best or worst of times, that is the truth. I guess I question my own definition of true love at times. It is hard to find a person who you can connect with at many different levels, there are times when you think you have that but end up losing it after a few weeks. I know I've met girls who I was really into and then after getting to know them more and more you see a different side of them and it makes you question whether she is someone you could build a relationship with. When Juno was telling Bleeker how whenever she saw him her heart would start beating fast, that is the feeling I would like to be experiencing. I had that feeling not too long ago and I loved it but unfortunately she did not get that same feeling for me.
I have never been much of a "dater", I have mostly liked being in something stable and it's been close to two years since I last had a girlfriend. I have dated here and there, and I have not liked what I've encountered. I've had my run-ins with girls who like to throw the word "love" around too easily like there is no tomorrow. I have also dated girls who forgot to mention they were currently in a serious relationship with another guy, who then ended up being irate when finding out that his "girlfriend" had been getting the "business" from me.
I know true love is not something that is easy to find, I also know that it takes work to develop it. What I don't know is if it truly exists, if it can actually be had by actual people rather than just by fictional characters in a well written screenplay. Maybe I will experience it tomorrow, maybe 3 years from, who knows, just as long as I get to experience it one day is all I can ask for.

You're a part time lover and a full time friend The monkey on you're back is the latest trend I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple We sure are cute for two ugly people I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage You want more fans, I want more stage I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

You are always trying to keep it real I'm in love with how you feel I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me So why can't, you forgive me? I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you

Du du du du du du dudu Du du du du du du dudu Du du du du du du dudu du I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else But you